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Valentines Day Message from me........
False positivity is required to make it through Valentines Day if you are single, I said to myself, put on a brave face for the world. It never worked, I hasten to add, I always felt disappointed by this day. Even when in a relationship and married, it still felt hard. I pondered if this was what love was about, roses, chocolates, a card, a gift of love. Is love a gift?
Can we hold love or give it? I have never felt we can measure it by the standards set by the all consuming marketing and media we find most of these festivals immersed in today. Love is a human feeling, not an emotion as such, it becomes something we feel after a time and it includes other emotions. It can often be confused as passion, lust, greed or hurt. We proclaim it readily and use it to describe things we like so that we can show gratitude; sometimes we use emojis to let people know we are grateful, and we use a lot if we feel insecure in the relationship we have with them.
If we do not receive any gifts or cards on Valentines Day are we less of a person, no, of course not. But we can feel that way and it can be a trigger for other feelings we have, like a past failed relationship or other betrayals.
We are becoming more accustomed to the phrase; self care and love, and how important it is to do it so that our mental health stay on track. How do we make time for this if we are constantly told that we must send love and flowers to our romantic partners?
These feelings are usually associated with low self esteem and a lack of self belief. When we feel this way our sorrow can look for extra validation, confirmation bias, to acknowledge the sadness we feel, however that is only half the story and we may be hiding just how sad we really feel. It can often feel easier to learn to hide feelings we do not like, or we feel others may not like or accept us for. We have all been told to cheer up, I think this phrase is one used for more women than men, by men! It is not very helpful when our sadness is telling us we are unhappy with a part of our lives, not necessarily that we are an unhappy person.
The best therapy for this is therapy, it can give you the space to explore why you feel this day is hard to deal with and what your past relationships may have left you feeling. If you are feeling an overwhelming sadness at the thought of Valentines day take some time to consider what your sadness is about, feeling it does not mean you will never be happy again.
Does drinking affect our mental health and anxiety, or is it just light relief from a hard week and a good way to relax into the weekend and enjoy ourselves?
This is a good question and one I have pondered for years!
Like a lot of people, I enjoy a drink, but not the hangover! I have researched hangovers and what happens to the brain, very little research has gone into this over the years. I found, like many, that our brain shrinks so water was a great relief along with pain killers and stodgy food! But my hangovers continued with great pain and got worse as I get older. I also experienced anxiety along with my hangover and felt it was; just me!
This week I found an article in The Guardian about hangovers and their relation to anxiety, it states work done by Professor David Nutt at Imperial College, London (he was the same man who was fired in 2009 from the government as chief drugs adviser for saying that alcohol was more dangerous than LSD) that alcohol can make anxiety in people who suffer worse, especially with a hangover.
He introduces Gaba, which is gamma-aminobutyric acid, these are targeted by alcohol and send messages to the brain to inhibit the activity of the nerve cells, calming the brain. Ahhhhhh! So, the more you drink the more gaba you produce.
After a few more drinks you start to block glutamate, which is the main transmitter for excitement to the brain, so you feel more relaxed. Ahhhhhhhhhhh!
Great, no, because your brain notices this imbalance and wants to put it right, you are low in glutamate and high in gaba, this leads to anxiety.
Adding to the misery the anxiety usually starts while you are asleep it off.
Alcohol also cause a small rise in noradrenaline, which is the fight or flight hormone, so if you already suffer you could suffer more with a BIG BOOZY night out.
So, if you suffer with anxiety, it is helpful to know what can affect you and increase your anxiety.
Try to keep your alcohol intake at a reasonable level, be aware of what you are going to do, just a pub visit or a night club, and make arrangements so that you are safe. If you do over do it, be aware and self-care is the way to respond, which does not involve criticism and regret.
Take care all!
Tell it like it is!
Leading on from the discussion below, advice from Health care providers and Doctors is now saying that when we talk to children about their bodies and they ask, inevitably, what is this? We stop using term like winkie or fluffy and use the proper terms, which are penis and vagina.
So, ok, you now feel a bit silly talking like this to your child when maybe you do not talk like that to anyone else! Even your husband or wife! It doesn't trip out of your mouth easily and feels 'wrong'........ You feel uneasy and uncomfortable, why shouldn't the school deal with this?
Well, we don't want to continue the embarrassment that surrounds sex, so why not give it a go, your child will probably just say, oh, ok! You have done it, wasn't as hard as you first thought!
Here is the science bit! Children need clear guidance about sex and sexuality to protect them from harm. If we continue to use incorrect names we could, with out trying, create a confusing situation so others can step in with more knowledge and information. None of us wants that, so a little discomfort from us as parents now, is worth the anguish of them finding out interesting stuff from other adults. We get to keep control of ahat our children learn, in a safe environment. We can also talk about consent, when touching is ok and when it is not. All the interesting stuff that we all wanted to know about and may have found out about in a less caring way. (For me it was older kids at school, not teachers!)
Maybe we can try to change the way we feel about sexuality through safe talks with our children.
I will be telling my children one day about the realities of what it is to be human, how we have sex, who we choose to have sex with and how we identify this. I will also discuss menstruation, pregnancy and childbirth. I have one of each, so I will talk to them together because it is a universal subject rather than boy vs girl!
This type of discussion can fill parents with dread and want to then leave it to the school to do.
I think this is no longer an option, we have to make children the future we want to have which includes acceptance, diversity and compassion.
Most parents want to protect their children, especially from threat. To make our children more aware of how their own bodies are their own we need to first take away any confusion about them. That then leads onto a conversation about consent, the idea that children do not need to know this is outdated. If we arm them with information they will be able to deal with issues around consent, or by the teenage years they will know that if they go on a date it does not automatically mean sex, I know a generation that feels that it does.
Happy New Year!
The new year and January bring lots of marketing slogans about a new you and making resolutions. However, I feel the best way to embrace the new year is to see it as a course of how far you have come over the last year.
So, are you happy with the results you see, this time last year did you feel the same and was it a good feeling? Was it a disgruntled feeling that you wanted to change, do you still feel that way? If this is the case, use January as your marker and goal setting post. This is where it starts, then 6 weeks from now set the target time of achieving your first goal!
Back of the net!
You have a measurable map to follow your progress throughout the year. The goals and achievements should always be realistic and you need to be able to measure progress.
If you goal is weight loss, my first suggestion would be, is your overeating an emotional crutch? Most overeating is a comfort thing and any diets are destined to fail because they take away comfort. If you want to start to control your food intake, look to your emotions and use therapy to find out why you may need comfort from food.
Then the goal of weight loss is realistic because you will have no need to sabotage yourself!
Also include exercise, if you take in more than you burn off you will gain weight.
So, the goal is set, the targets are realistic and the progress is measurable. Go on, what have you got to loose?! Oh yeah, weight!
Hiding hurt feelings is not so easy.
Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.
I remember this phrase, I suppose it would be called a meme now and have a picture of stones and sticks!
The first time I heard it I was a child, in my head I had a picture of a stone hitting a bone and the pain of that! Ouch! The rest did not make much sense to me. I kept on hearing it, from my mother and the teachers at school, and other adults. They spoke it like it was a truth. Mostly it was said to me if I was upset by something someone had said to me, something that had caused me pain. Usually adults were not sure how to deal with my pain, so this phrase made my pain go away, of course it didn't, just for the adults and I went away!
Now I want to revisit it with an adult eye and ear! I am questioning the actual words as they are in the phrase, WORDS WILL NEVER HURT ME. This is wrong, of course they will hurt, they hurt emotionally and sometimes really deep. This phrase feels like a warning without an explanation, striking fear in a child or adult with confusion and pain.
Firstly, it makes a real statement that if you hit your bone with a stone it will hurt, however that is fantasy too, your skin is hit first so we have the first part of the set up! Our bones are not exposed, they are covered by muscle, veins, fat and skin, clothes too sometimes protective pads and guards or amour!
The second part suggests that words are not the same as a physical feeling, we know on the flip side that if someone says I LOVE YOU, we feel it physically in our body. We also feel it in our mind and we are in love! So, if someone says I HATE YOU, stands to reason that will hurt. A lot.
We do not have a covering for our emotions, like we do our bones, they can be exposed at all times. Our body can react before we are aware of the feeling we are experiencing, sometimes unexpectedly without any warning. Do we have cover our emotions the same way our bones are? Is hiding our feelings a way of covering our emotions from the exposure we feel? Is denying how we feel a way of pretending to ourselves that we do not feel hurt?
Can it work, does it work? If we show how vulnerable we are to hurt feelings does this make us a weak person and therefore a failure in life? Or does it make us a real person who is genuinely experiencing life.......?
You are too sensitive. Your have an open heart. You wear your heart on your sleeve. Harden up. Don't let them get the better of you. Do not show them how much they have hurt you, they will use it against you. Don't fuss. Your are so emotional. Are you at your time of the month. Is this how you want them to see you, at your worst.
I have heard many of these phrases in my life, none of them have helped me to process my pain and move through it, they mostly confused me and the pain lasted even longer. I ended up hurt and confused.
What do you do with hurt........?
What do we do with emotional pain? If I have physical pain I can take a pain killer, usually Paracetamol, to ease the discomfort. We can also cry, shout Aw! Get angry, be sad, in fact if we get physically hurt we go to our emotions to help us deal with it, as well as drugs!
But what do we do with an emotional pain? Do we recognise it in the same way we do our physical pain, or do we hide from it and pretend it does not hurt. Downplay it, minimize it, deny it, give it to someone else?
If all humans crave comfort from others is one of the easiest ways to deal with emotional pain, to pass it onto someone else?
Alternatively, can we go to the same human reactions we use for physical pain, cry, shout aw! Feel sad or angry? Do we then judge ourselves for being "weak" because we "let them get to us"? If we get hurt by a punch in the mouth and admit to ourselves that it hurts, are we weak, or being honest about how that felt? If someone ignores our text and we admit to ourselves that it hurts to be ignored, are we again weak or expressing an honest feeling? How do we get a remedy if someone has hurt us because they said something that made us feel bad?
We can ask them to say sorry. We need to give them the chance of doing this and also let them know that we got hurt in the first place.
There are three parts to saying sorry that make it work. The first is the word, saying you are sorry and knowing what you did was not right. The second is admitting your mistake and the hurt it caused, the third is asking how can I make it better and make it right? The important part is that we respect ourselves and each other by being aware and confident enough to know that we can cause pain to each other, by mistake, and once we admit it we can address what has happened. Anything else is just toxic!
Are there any other useful ways to deal with our emotional pain? Some people write a journal, others cry at a film (whilst really crying for themselves) some do exercise and some go directly to the cause of their pain and alert them to it!
I think this is a part of human life that is so easily hidden, but the pain is so very real.
Can we see our emotional hurt?
Sometimes we feel meh! Our body may hurt, our muscles are tense, we have a headache and our teeth are sore! Our hands don't move with the usual swiftness that they have and as we walk we may plod along and even stumble. Our face may reflect a deep sadness or anguish only glimpsed as a flash as we move through our day waiting for it to end.
Sometimes we may have experienced our reality being denied to us by a significant other or a person in authority. It can be highly influential in how we interpret our experience. We may reach out to these people for support in moments of hurt or crisis and we can be met with a "it's not that bad" response.
How do you respond, or not, to this when you face a situation that is hard?
Sometimes people can turn the pain inwards to themselves rather than face the vulnerability of being rejected by others, just a small gesture can feel devastating. If we keep our pain in us no-one can hurt us further because we are holding on to it.
Whilst this works for a short time, over time the pain becomes heavy and bigger, by ignoring it we give it weight so it can feel like screaming.
What happens when we don't show our hurt....?
Sometimes people can try to find a way to hide the pain they feel, it can be because the pain they feel expressing their pain is worse than the original pain. Like, when a child is told not to cry so much, or just simply, Don't Cry! Mostly, children believe what they are told by adults, so they probably stop, but tears are a natural way to feel pain or sadness. Hence, the confusion and anguish start! This is something men may have had said to them, boys don't cry!
There is evidence that humans have to have an outlet for emotions, hurt is part of that. We can turn it inwards and start to hurt ourselves with our critical inner voice, or outwards in a rage against the community.
We can also use alcohol or drugs to take the edge off the pain, or to disguise it completely. Addictions can be a way to deal with the emotional pain people feel. These, of course, have their own effect on us, which often need to be dealt with before the hurt.
If your waters break; there is no need to panic and go to the hospital right away. You may have been told that there is an increased risk of infection, but if labour starts within 24 hours, the risk is not increased. If labour is slow and starts 24 hours after the membranes have broken, there is a chance of infection.
It is better to start to relax, have a bath, watch tv or get a good nights sleep. You do not need to be induced or have a vaginal examination, just say "No thank you!" Research says induction can lead to slower labour, more painkillers and Caesaren section.
Sheila Kitzinger, The New Pregnancy and Childbirth.
Pain and labour.........!
Most of us when we think about giving birth we think of pain, many a joke is made out of it. And like most jokes, it is a cover for fear, like gallows humour!
There is a lot of evidence about how fear effects us and our bodies, muscles start to tense and adrenaline starts to be produced. Why is this, well, our primitive brain kicks in when we start to feel frightened, this happens without our knowledge, it is involuntary! Then it is all systems go and we start to prepare for danger, hence muscles tension and adrenaline! Lots of other stuff happens, but the focus today is on this.
Ok, so you go in to labour and feel frightened, your brain thinks it is danger so prepares.........This is where the situation can become painful. During labour you need muscles in the Uterus to be working at there optimum, full of blood and ready for action! If you feel frightened, the brain has focused blood etc to vital 'keep you alive' muscles like the heart! The Uterus is deprived and becomes tense, starting the pain cycle that Grantly Dick-Reid identified:
PAIN - TENSION - FEAR
Take away the fear, with information, relaxations, videos, affirmations and you can birth with less intense pain. The muscles working feels intense, but once that contraction has gone, it will not be back!
Pre term babies and the umbilical cord
Research at Nottingham City Hospital has found that leaving babies who are premature attached to the placenta can help them with more oxygenated blood, and therefore a better chance of survival. The cord is usually cut at 10 seconds after birth, leaving it for longer is a new thing, and also a trust in the body and baby to help themselves!
At Nottingham City Hospital they are leaving it for 2 minutes and the benefits are being felt in that it reduces the chances of a baby dying. Professor Jim Thornton Obstetrics and Gynaecology, University of Nottingham talks parents through what they are going to do and they mostly agree, in-fact none have objected to the cord being cut quickly.
New borns also can have the cord left after birth, or not, but they are swaying to leave it for longer than the usual rush as the baby is born, which has been seen to have health benefits.
Hypnobirthing and celebrities
If you are pregnant you may have been told, or heard, about this new age thing called hypnobirthing, indeed you may well know that Duchess Kate used it whilst giving birth to all three of her children, including, Louis, her last child. In fact, lots of other celebrities used it to give birth, including Angelina Jolie, Jessica Alba and Gisele Bündchen. Gisele said "It wasn't painful, not even a little bit. The whole time, my head was so focused – every contraction, the baby is closer, the baby is closer. So it wasn't like, ‘Oh what pain.' It was, ‘With every contraction, he is getting closer to me.’”
This said, hypnobirthing is about that, becoming so focused on what you are doing that pain does not come into it because the sensations have a purpose, they are delivering your baby to you! There are no strange displays or rituals, no potions or chanting’s! Just you, your partner, the staff and midwife, and your baby! Whether you give birth at home or in hospital, if you have a c-section, you can still use hypnobirthing and not have to rely on drugs.
OK, I know it is ok to say “I want drugs, I am not giving birth without them!!” other women and mums will look on with familiarity and a wry smile of knowingness. A kind of solidarity is made, all mums together, something just for us that the men can’t touch! I have heard new mums talk to new fathers about the suffering of childbirth as if it is good to be in pain and they are much stronger to endure pain.
Just watching an episode of EastEnders with Hayley and Kim, both pregnant, Hayley states; “Give me all the drugs you can!” This made Kim laugh out loud! And, yes, it is funny, but it can be scary. This humour hides a fear and an expectation that it will be painful, that your body will be unable to do it without the use of drugs and medical assistance. However, this is a different pain, one of a kind, more an intense muscle involuntary surge of energy! And, you will meet your baby at the end of it! How good is that?
Yet, this is your body and baby, the midwife will have already told you about the drugs that are available, and the side effects and after effects on you and your baby. With hypnobirthing you can avoid the drugs, or at least hold off for as long as you can!
You may wonder if this is a new thing, it is not, hypnosis isn’t and this is a specialist type of that. In fact, in 1933 Dr Grantley Dick-Reid, an obstetrician, published his book Childbirth Without Fear. He noticed that the one thing that was missing in an easy birth, was fear! If you feel fear your body will divert oxygen and blood to vital organs like the heart and the uterus will have less, therefore, the muscles will be tense and cause pain. Hypnobirthing can allow you to focus on the birth, rather than the pain! Classes are a good way to do this, but you can always find a practitioner and have sessions with them on a one-to-one basis.
Hypnobirthing babies are much calmer and have a higher APGAR score at birth, this is the test that is done at birth and then again at 5 minutes old. It scores the wellness of the baby including; activity, pulse, grimace, appearance, respiration. Basically, muscle movement, pulse rate, reflex movement, pink skin colour and breathing quality.
Why not give it a try, it will not interfere with your baby and it will not stop you from having medical help, if necessary. You have nothing to lose!
Hypnobirthing and historical childbirth.
So celebrities like Hypnobirthing, well does that make us all want to use it, are we persuaded? Would we be more persuaded if we learnt about the roots of our current perceptions of childbirth.
For example, on the whole, bodily functions are not painful. Period pains are muscle contractions and can be intense, but most women manage them quite well. The history of pain in childbirth is quite a surprising one, and can get a little political! The relationship between man and women is at play. Giving life is the purpose of a human, women do it!
I do not see much about the origins of pain in childbirth, because it is a strange situation of control, oppression and humanity at its worse! Childbirth in time has changed dramatically to what it is today, women do not regularly die in labour, for one!
Fear attached to childbirth has been around for centuries, Eves Curse is written in the Bible that childbirth shall be painful, if not excruciating so that a women can pay for the sin of having sex! Is that thinking relevant today?
Chinese sign for listen.
Whilst studying my tutor brought this to my attention, he was also a fellow Carl Rogers fan! The picture is a Chinese character, the Chinese culture is ancient and with this sometimes comes wisdom, I feel this is a wonderful expression of how insightful language can be and how a word can have depth and meaning beyond first glance.
The character translates to our equivalent of to listen. It has five different strands to it, which add depth and intensify the meaning. This is the best way to explain Active Listening, which is what my counselling is about! They are as follows:
Something for us all to live by, or at least, aspire to!
Albert Ellis was a leading American psychologist. He is considered the founder of CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) and the second most influential psychologist in history. I quote
The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology or the president. Your realise that you control your own destiny.
Albert ellis has written many books and been awarded Humanist of the Year in 1971. His humanist philosophies, I feel, are to the core of life, we each hold the answers to who we are. We are the experts on ourselves and have the power to change behaviour by influencing thinking. This goes against how most people live their lives, blaming each other and constantly feeling unsettled.